The girl with the Red Pentax

STOP talking about Tumblr on Facebook. Think of it like Fight Club, you don’t talk about it.

YES I’m telling you what to do.

I am now officially one of those soccer fans with the scarf. I can’t believe I went my whole life without ever paying any attention to it.

It really is the most beautiful game, you have to watch it to understand that. I actually plan things around matches and I actually feel depressed when my team loses and super-elated when they win.

This year my team is doing awesome and they are the underdog and I relate to that.

I don’t know how its possible to have your life revert to high school, I hated high school.

Maybe it’s not my life but the people in it.

I haven’t taken any pictures in a couple of months because I haven’t felt like it but I’m starting to think that this is the problem.

When in doubt stick to the things you love.

I gained 7 new followers overnight.

it’s official, my tumbllrlife is better than my real life.

Welcome new followers I will begin stalking you all secretly before following you. :)

I celebrated xmas in April, when I left Afghanistan. I don’t mean that because it was such an awful place I was just happy to be out of there-  After watching people suffer and give up on dreams and not be able to enjoy the simplest things I left with a more appreciative attitude towards life in general.

I showered my loved ones with presents and smiles because I didn’t need to wait until December to celebrate anyone’s life. I tried to re-connect with people to close distances to forgive and move on all in the spirit of Xmas, even though it was April.

My mom is turning 60 on Saturday and as much as it hurts me to not be there to celebrate the actual day with her I feel comforted in the fact that I’ve been celebrating her life since April.

I made an effort since April to spend more time with my love ones to write more emails not just liking someone’s FB status or re-tweeting on Twitter. 

This would have all been perfect if I wasn’t the only one with a clear picture and appreciation of life and how short it is and whats really important.

So now its a week before xmas and I have nothing left because I tried I really tried and no one got it, no one noticed.

You know isn’t going unnoticed? the fact that I’m not there for my moms birthday.

I am tired of your little Christmas Break. 

Get back to work.

The truth is that recently everything that’s wrong in my world can all be traced to me giving way too many F**ks about way too much crap. That stops now.

Also, I really need Napoli to win tonight.

when I’m bored and people aren’t tumbling enough to keep me entertained.

I originally wrote this a couple of years ago, B.K. (Before Kabul) and I ran across it tonight and realized that the person that wrote it is still here so I’m gonna rewind and start over remembering this:

I crossed out the things I don’t do anymore and added the new habits.

Email  (only when I have to not for fun like i used to).

Tumblr

Facebook (begrudgingly)

Texts From last Night

OverheardinNewYork.com

Thats it for my internet surfing. For news, I go outside the house and talk to people, I judge the crime rate in my neighborhood by who got robbed For the weather, I go outside To see whats going on in other parts of the world, I travel. For history, I take pictures. For company, I listen to music and/or read books. As for politics, I notice the rise and fall of the taxes I pay. For the economy I pay attention to the prices of my favorite wines. For advice, I look to those around me, people I actually know. For inspiration, I read and watch sunsets, play with children and take walks, and more music, read Paolo Coelho. For beauty tips, I look in the mirror and pick out the good things only. For health tips, I take a daily vitamin, try to moderate the amounts of junk I eat, and I drink lots of water, quit smoking and exercise at least 5 days a week. For investment of my money, I spend on books, travel, and music the rest I leave in the bank. I also donate through Kiva (which is easy and awesome). To figure out the latest trends- I just go by whatever makes me feel good that day. For fashion, I go on comfort. For gossip, I talk about people I know but are not my friends. For depression, grief and hearache, I call on my friends. I used to don’t know why I don’t anymore. For fun I write, read, laugh play Bejeweled Blitz. More than entertainment its things that calm me down. Fun eludes me right now. For making my dreams come true, I believe and I take actions that move me always closer to them. I was doing this and i’m fighting to get back there again. If you ask me how I live, I will always respond the same- I LIVE MY life and no one elses. THIS is still super true because after everything I’ve seen I can’t be anyone else even if I wanted to.